A New Heart
I admit, as much as I love to do it, writing is hard for me. There’s so much restraint required to write well but there’s just so much in me that wants to gush out all at once! It’s all about God and this new heart I’ve been given in Christ. That’s why it’s so hard to control it. Seriously, how do you control God gushing into and out of you?!
That’s why I’ve struggled for weeks trying to land on what I wanted to write about in this, my very first blog post. You see, although I’ve been hanging around with and following Jesus for 15 years, I actually missed the Amazing Gift Jesus died to give me. I’m not talking about salvation: that, I get. What I did not grasp however, is that I am a new creation with a new heart and the full implication of this reality in my life.
I’m fairly intelligent, but frankly, getting this is more about seeing than it is about understanding. I’m very good at understanding things with my brain – you have to be in my line of work – and I understand a lot about my faith, but I was blind to this treasure until God opened my eyes, just like in the old hymn.
“Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now I’m found
Was blind but now I see.”
-Amazing Grace, John Newton
It was right there in front of me the whole time, so plain and simple a child could have grasped it. “Then he said, ‘I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven.'” (Matthew 18:3 NLT). This was the reason I didn’t see. I was too busy trying to understand God instead of trusting Him like a little child, so I missed it.
A New Life
I know a lot of people who are trying to understand God too, so I figured I probably wasn’t the only one who missed it. In fact, I know I’m not because the beloved brethren in my church family and community who love and follow Jesus surround me. Like me before, they aren’t experiencing the transformation characteristic of the normal Christian life the Bible describes. They look just like the poor lost world: buffeted by anxiety and fear, worn out with striving to change, control and manage, stressed, overwhelmed, with failing relationships, failing health, broken hearts and broken dreams. They wonder why and lament that they are yet deprived of the abundant life and peace Jesus promised and died to give us.
With this blog I want to try and illuminate for you this amazing truth he opened my eyes to and the new life He’s been leading me into. I want to try and explain to you what it means to be a new creation in Christ with a new heart, because now that I really see it, my life is changing, I’m changing, the way I’ve longed and prayed to change, from the inside out.
I’m not sure I’ll always be able to write well about these things but that’s not surprising. I’m just a girl, this is just a blank piece of digital paper and He’s a great big God. But I know if we rely on Him, he’ll tell us what He wants us to know and show us what He wants us to see because he’s a Good God and a Good Father.
Come On In
So today’s post is an invitation. I’m not sure I can explain this to you well, but I can invite you into my life so you may see my new coming-alive-again heart, and I can lend you my once-blind-but-now-I-see eyes. I want you to see God gushing in and out of me; watch as he tenderly and faithfully softens, molds, disciplines and recreates me according to his perfect will and plan for my life. And I want you to see in this new heart he’s making in me, the new heart he can make in you, if you’ll let him.
Welcome to my gushing heart…